4 Months and Counting

I have been unemployed now for a little over 4 months. It has been a time of hope and frustration. Sometimes I switch between these polar feelings in a matter of seconds!

I'm hopeful that I will land an amazing job if I only wait on God's perfect timing. Hopeful that He will provide (and He has thus far). Hopeful everytime I apply for a job. Hopeful everytime I miss out on a job that there's something better for me. Hopeful that things (ie, the economy, job market) will improve. Hopeful because I know that God is in control.

I get frustrated by the lack of jobs available in my field and every field, for that matter. Frustrated by people with jobs telling me the job market isn't that bad. Frustrated that friends who have no experience in my field get the entry level jobs. Frustrated that I haven't even landed an interview. Frustrated when I get turned down for jobs that I could do in my sleep. Frustrated that I worry about the future when I know better than to worry. Frustrated that I have no control over any of this!

The process of receiving unemployment benefits was not explained well in January when I first started receiving them. I was told that I had until January 2010. They left out that I only get a certain dollar amount. So, they should say I have x amount of dollars in my account or until January 2010, whichever comes first. So, as it stands, my benefits will run out at the beginning of July if I keep receiving the level of benefits I currently receive. I can continue to receive benefits if I work fewer than 30 hours per week. Whatever I earn at a part-time job will be deducted from my weekly benefit amount. But if I work over 30 hours, I get no benefits, so I'd probably earn less than what I get with my benefits. Did all that make sense? So, in order to stretch out my benefits to a later date, I'm looking for some part-time work. As a result, I went ahead and (reluctantly) signed up with a temp agency yesterday. Even they told me that they aren't receiving many temp assignments (more frustration). I'm now thinking of signing on with a number of temp agencies to better my chances of finding something. Truth be told, I don't even want to deal with any of this! I just want my perfect broadcasting job...NOW!!!